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We Usually Do This Louder

by Swordfish

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1.
Wash 03:09
ten bucks says that you think about her more than she thinks about you she has no idea what you're thinking about or what you've been going through and you can memorize patterns of rugs from staring at the floor but avoiding eye contact doesn't work much anymore it doesn't work much anymore So i'll wash the cigarette smoke out of my clothes they smell like your car did six months ago back when you picked up a pack because you thought that they made you look cool but they don't no they don't. and i know that you don't think it's wrong to replace mine with his name across your tongue with casual sin and smoke in your lungs i'm just another boy that life did him wrong i'm holding on cause it's all that i've got, this letter you wrote that says that i'm all that he's not and i'm hoping that that doesn't mean what I think it means so I'll wash the smell of your perfume out my skin I've got all of these these thoughts and these words but I don't have anywhere to begin so I'll start with this, you're a blade to my neck i can't handle these words Can't handle regrets can't handle this right now i'm sorry i'm holding on cause it's all that i've got, this letter you wrote that says that I'm all that he's not i'm hoping that that doesn't mean what i think it means i'm holding on cause it's all that i've got, this letter you wrote that says that I'm all that he's not i'm hoping that that doesn't mean what i think it means
2.
Small circular burn inscriptions from nights made haste to satisfy your addictions i reached for your hand and all i felt was ash and the last time that i saw you smile, i drove us to the secretary of state you renewed your license i applied to vote you fixed your hair and then you said yeah you said that it hurts my heart to know that you would lock your door before you’d leave me behind in the morning before you’d leave me behind and you’d tell me that those 6 letters that once spelled snooze have long since been removed they’ve been thrust off, rubbed away (ty, D) like your body’s been fighting off the day there is a fine line between sleeping in and sleeping all day my life it’s gone to the dogs my colors turned to grays but it hurts my heart to know that you would lock your door before you'd leave me behind in the morning before you'd leave me behind
3.
i can’t smell a cigarette without thinking of my dad and the time that i found his white lighter in my bed and had i not known better i would have set my bunk bed ablaze it would have made you think real long and hard about your menthol days now i’m a vice in concrete two initials scrawled in sidewalk despite your best intentions I still don’t want to talk about commitments of etchings, an inability to fall apart some letters a plus sign and an encircling heart but youuuuuuuuuu know me and youuuuuuuuuu care and want the best for me i can’t tell if i’m introverted or if i’m just really lame because you know that i’ve got more time than you to play all of these games so when I say im too busy to leave my house don’t believe a word from my mouth i just dont want to go out AHHHH but you know me and you care *loud strums* *marching band comes in* *marilyn manson feature* *david bailey beatboxing* but you know me and you care and want the best for me "That was good."
4.
JG 03:11
there's a light on in the jones goddard building somebody went past the mold and all of the broken glass and it bears the question: why replace the things that never last? then you held me so tight i forgot that i asked you keep me lit you keep me warm you keep me lit and warm there's a light on in the jones goddard building past graffitied brick and all of the broken beams i know on the outside i seem inhabited but you should know things aren't always the way they seem you keep me lit you keep me warm you keep me lit and warm
5.
i think its terrifying i think it is quite scary that as the seasons change my breath it goes to menthol cherry i've got an IV of black coffee and my throat's too sore to smoke yet I romanticize the two because it makes me feel composed i'm powerwashing paint to prepare for new coats i'm buying salt to season pavement and i'm layering my clothes the winter's harsh on warm bodies my heart's still pumping heat I want to watch fight club with your dad again on DVD and he'll say that I want you to hit me as hard as you can I want it to hurt I want to feel like the man that my father intended on taking his name creating a family and filling his frames and I've got paintings on the walls with artist's names i can't pronounce you know that when i write these songs i get caught up in the pronouns because it's the way that i write these things that i feel that lets me step back and say that you're being dramatic misanthropy is trite write a happy song for once well i think that i might im putting postage on bad poetry i'm too afraid to send you know that i want to watch fight club with your dad again
6.
Six-Shooter 03:20
it was a russian roulette kind of night i pulled the trigger six times i still ended up alright and i poured out more than i would like to admit of that five dollar pint she says she likes to get ___ed up and i hope she don't like it too much you know that i'd like to talk to you until the day breaks but your eyes they're closing i wonder how long you'll be conscious for i really hope that you know that i hope you don't go home yet it's in the living room with all of my friends 40s and bottles we're finding the ends the liquor store is across the street we can get more of them drink more of them but your eyes they're closing i wonder how long you'll be conscious for i really hope that you know that i hope you don't go home yet i woke up with death in my mouth and snow on the ground and i wish that i was further south so that i could go somewhere but my eyes they're closing i think i'll stay in bed today
7.
Dentistry 02:31
i'm not sure if it's the winter or if i'm just depressed cause my head feels like its swelling from the thoughts that i've repressed and maybe i should stop the smoke from entering my chest because as the days grow shorter the same thing happens to my breath as it quickens i am nervous i'm shaking in my bed i've been crumbling under the thoughts inside of my head i'm falling down i'm fading out and the blinds across the room shine bright along the edges proving i have wasted yet another mid november morning you won't know what i am or know how this feels yes i'm still drifting back to the way things were but i finally took back the wheel from the things you said how they hurt me so 1,000 thoughts you'll never know i still live with this crippling doubt knowing that one day my teeth will fall out and i won't be able to tell you the things that i wanted to say i want to know if your cat died i want to hear your dad explain death to your little brother wanna be there or at least some place i can hear or at least some place i can hear
8.
Thanks 03:25
i've been trying to find the words to say how it feels when i stay in bed all day if not to only get something from the fridge i've been trying to find the words to say when nothing's wrong i just don't feel great and you said that you'd be over soon (that repeats) but you aren't here you aren't here you aren't here and i stopped like 10 minutes into sunshine of a spotless mind i like Jim Carrey and I guess that the acting's fine i just didn't want something to try and remind me of the nuances of a broken heart how it feels to always fall apart when something makes me feel sad again because you aren't here you aren't here you aren't here i like you and having you around you help me to suppress the sounds i like you and having you around you help me to suppress the sounds of this empathetic weight that i've taken on but you aren't here
9.
my cold feet didn't stand a chance against early january and my beat up vans as i looked at your hands and i thought about love how i couldn't feel you between my too/two thick gloves and i couldn't tell what was breath or smoke and i could hear feel see taste and smell the words you spoke coming out your lips in clouds that dissipate into me regretting listening to what you had to say what you had to say but now i've made my bed and i can't fall asleep in it i've made this bed just to lie in it awake i took on your ghosts i took all of your demons for your sake but i couldn't tell what was salt or ice as i walked alone along those yellow lines tell me oh tell me am i still a part of your designs? lie to me and say that everything is alright but now i've made my bed and i can't fall asleep in it i've made this bed just to lie in it awake i took on your ghosts i took all of your demons for your sake the ice accummulated on my windshield well i was so foggy that i couldn't see good yet you felt like everything was exactly the same *oh woah woah oh oh woah* but now i've made my bed and i can't fall asleep in it i've made this bed just to lie in it awake i took on your ghosts i took all of your demons for your sake
10.
I O O I 02:41
you look less like a ghost and more like a sheet with two eye holes cut out that i wore last halloween so that you couldn't see my mouth when i'd say maybe it's better maybe we'll work out some day then you crushed that cup between your hands you had nothing left to say but by far hands down last halloween was the worst by far hands down last halloween was the worst you look less like a ghost and more like a sheet on the floor with that unmade bed of yours and you kept it like your relationships always ready to let anything just slip and you should know that hurts a little but by far hands down last halloween was the worst by far hands down last halloween was the worst you look less like a ghost and more like a girl i used to know and we'd talk for hours about anything or the snow and it wasn't long until i had nothing left to show she said don't worry about it you still have room to grow but by far hands down last halloween was the worst by far hands down last halloween was the worst ......... ________________ I.. O O.. I <{but you wouldn't know) L_........ L_ ------------------------------ l ......... I l/\/\/\/\/I

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Click on each song for lyrics. These songs were recorded using two acoustic guitars, Audacity, and a ten dollar headset mic from Amazon.

We usually do this much.. much louder.

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released February 7, 2016

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Swordfish Ypsilanti, Michigan

nervous fingers on frets like cold flesh in a grocery aisle.

Chandler Lach (vocals/rhythm guitar/thesaurus user)
Kyle McFarland (lead guitar/smash mouth enthusiast)
Elijah Bouldin (bass guitar/finger tapping boy wonder)
Elijah Simkins (drums/strong jawed tempo protagonist)
Kris Lane
(Trumpet Extraordinaire)

Graphic Design work courtesy of Andrew Esty
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